I’d say my biggest strength and weakness is how quickly I fall for someone and how quickly I bounce back. I just don’t know which is the weakness and which is the strength
my parents didn’t raise me to order something expensive when someone else is paying
reblog if you too are scared to drink anything but water when someone takes you out to eat
I told myself I’m giving up on men for 2019. But I’m talking to this guy right now. Technically we started talking before the New Year. So I’m going to see this through. And then I swear, I’m giving up on men.
I’m gonna focus on me. I’m going to focus on school. I’ll focus on my future career. And I will focus on where I’m going to live after graduation.
I recently went on a Tinder date while I was in Vancouver. And I think it was hands down the best first date I’ve been on. It was kind of awkward at first but, then we warmed up to each other. And we just talked. And he’d use Tagalog words and we didn't even have to explain to each other what they mean. I never knew that’s what it’s like when you date someone from the same ethnicity. He even started playing the piano and singing Sam Smith to me.
I’m so happy Hope is back in Hawaii even for just a bit.
Ich bin bekifft.
I just wanna feel na may nagsseryoso sakin. yung may taong handa mageffort para sakin. yun lang. tangina naman
portland
I’m so fucking stoked to go home. I’m so excited for 40 degree weather. I’m excited for walking around the city in my parka and not needing Google maps to help me get around.
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Ugh. This semester really was not it for me. My grandma is in the ICU right now. My boyfriend of three years told me he wasn’t ever really happy with me and broke up with me over the phone after ghosting me for a week. And my other grandma died two months ago. And I’m so fucking far away from my family and I’m honestly just ready to go home. I’ve been doing so much to avoid my problems and not have to deal with my feelings. I even started fucking journaling this shit out but, my hand can’t keep up with my thoughts. Thus, here I am.
I deleted social media off my phone and even went as far as to have my friend change all my passwords for me. I won’t be on there for a while. I told her not to give them back to me until March. Maybe I’ll just use my Tumblr to rant and vent. I need to find a better outlet for all this shit.
Oh, I decided I’d go to counseling. I feel like this is something I should have looked into sooner. My uni offers free counseling sessions. I don’t know why I didn’t take advantage of it this semester.
I also decided to move to Germany or Austria the first chance I get. I fell in love with Berlin and Vienna. I love the language. The culture of both countries. I miss Berlin. I miss being taking BVG to get around. I miss döners. I miss the people. I miss my apartment in Kreuzberg. I miss walking through Tempelhof. I miss being in Europe. I found Peroni at Target yesterday and drank on the beach. Not a German beer but it is my favorite beer. I need to learn German. My German sucks and I feel like I sound stupid. I don’t think there is a place for me in the US. I don’t want to live in California. I love Portland but I don’t see myself living there. Hawaii is beautiful but I don’t want to settle down here.
That’s where I am at this point. Thanks for coming to my Tedtalk